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2008-10-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

Sometimes tears say all
There is to say
Sometime your first
Scars wont ever fade, away

Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked
Soaked to the skin

It's the end where I begin.

2008-10-09T23:04:00.002+08:00

Maybe we'll turn it all around,
'cause it's not too late,
it's never too late.

Awake, and unafraid.
Just ________.

2008-09-09T21:02:00.002+08:00

These few days hasn't been good for me,
been losing some appetite,
been very tired even though i had longer hours of sleeping,
been frustrated and irritated by several things.

The feeling,
it hasn't been experienced for quite some time already,
but it's starting to creep back into my life,
slowly and knowingly.
It's not a good sign,
and I have to draw a line before it's too late,
and stop closing the walls on myself.

The twist of fate,
is weird enough that,
it happens at times when you don't want it to appear,
and just fail to rise when you needed it the most.
Maybe it has being riding my life all along,
but it just spells trouble.

2008-09-04T00:40:00.002+08:00

0.0 (doesn't it look pretty the same?)

I'm bored.
I'm hungry.
Nachos.
0040hrs.
Eat and sleep.
Whee.
Random.

(conk me up)

2008-09-03T00:28:00.003+08:00

(ugh, stupid emo elmo)

Whoa oh, whoa, whoa oh,
Why do I put myself in these situations?

It's late. Why am I still awake? Hohumm.
Covered Chemistry today, I feel super. Whee.
My stomach is growling. Heck, it's so late, and I'm too lazy to move myself towards the kitchen.
Why don't I,

why don't I just lie my stupid self on the bed?

Yeah, I should do that. Final. Plus chop. Okay, nights.

Soccer tomorrow. Yay.

and I don't know how to be fine when I'm not,
cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop;

2008-08-31T23:47:00.004+08:00

Because you live and breathe,

Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help,
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky.

Stuck in my mind;

2008-08-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

Looking around,
he realised,
that maybe life's not that bad after all.

Or maybe not.

Hello people,

Happy Teachers' Day :D Okay the celebration was pathetically boring, and then I went back to SJI to wish the teachers my greetings. I wonder why they couldn't recognise me. Hmm. So the school didn't change much, and I saw my friends, haha, and they changed alot. Oh, and Wei Jun went for Trinity Summer Schools last December. Haha.

So I went back and met the others at the primary school. It was okay, just the few minor problems I had entering the school, which basically sums how much it had changed since then. Bermudas isn't allowed? Woah, so I have to change to jeans so I'm allowed to go in? It's pretty senseless, and it's just too weird. Confidentiality? I doubt so. Gathered with the others, and went to see the teachers. Reminiscence, which basically sums the whole place up. Well, the system has kinda changed, but the place didn't. Brings back fond memories. Gaww.

Lunch and a little small gathering after that, and went to watch Wall.E with Hsiang Wei and ABK. It was quite nice. Robots do have feelings, HAHA. Well, that's what I concluded.

September holidays are here. Not holidays, but a week of heavy studying on the way. Assessment's coming up :(

I just wish,
for that presence of fate and luck,
to come by.
That's all I ask for.

2008-08-23T22:38:00.005+08:00

So I don't know why, but today I'm happy. I feel so.. happy. Just happy. Whee.

I know I don't sound so but I am. Haha, so I spent my whole day outside, at Orchard to celebrate Yiting's birthday with the others, then me and HsiangWei met at Vivo, and we roamed around to several shops. Haha, and we saw this pair of red flip-flops which was pretty nice. HsiangWei, being himself, obviously (fill in the blanks) :P Haha, there's two options, one colour on each foot, or two, you get another colour. Haha! :P Oh, and I finally found that pair of Havainas missing at other places :) Oh and HsiangWei, I don't need to explain haha, the phone speaks for itself, the automatic adaptation of the rear camera when it's blocked by the slide, simply results the switch to the front camera. Hahaha :P

So, yeah, we had his belated treat at Carl's. Then we walked around for awhile more before taking 97 back home, and during the journey playing the roller coaster game. Okay, I'm not too good in that. If I was an architect or programmer for the roller coaster, I would probably just kill people all at one go. Haha.

Good things happened today. So why don't we all be happy today? Heh :D (Just a random comment)

All these thoughts locked inside,
now you're the first to know.

2008-08-22T23:50:00.003+08:00

*previous deleted* upon request, that vain guy. haha :P

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY HONG HSIANGWEI :D
I didn't forget your birthday okay! Haha! Oh, I will treat you to a meal later and I mean it :)
I'm not mean, but I want to make you feel guilty heh :P
Break the tradition haha :)

Olympics going to end,
and I liked yesterday's taekwondo.
It was nice :)

We had crazy high bio today,
I don't know man, it was the first time I didn't fall asleep in that lesson.

My ankle still feels kinda uncomfortable,
but the swelling has subsided a little, looking much better than previously.

Okay, sleep! :D
I miss my bed.

One more night
And we'll go spinning around the room
And dance with our hearts on fire
Cause every song is ours tonight

2008-08-20T23:37:00.002+08:00

Hello people,

I am tired, my eyes just feel like closing up.
Good news, is that tomorrow I'm not going to school,
since stupid me, being retarded, and absolutely clumsy,
once again committed a pathetic tragedy to my beloved ankle,
which had yet gotten another "kiss" from my bowling ball,
and because of my useless hand coordination,
it got so excited that it swelled and ballooned into a huge golf ball,
and left me stumbling and limping hopelessly,
as I see Hsiang Wei run past me, back to me, smiling, and ran away again.
How pathetic can I get.

But at least, I've gotten a day off to allow my ankle to rest,
and hopefully, back to chasing buses. Successfully.

Right now, just happy dreams
and the morning sunshine.
Sleep!

2008-08-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

and you leave me breathless;

hello.
finally, i can heave a huge sigh of relief. the tide's over - presentations are (kind of) over,
but chinese prelims are going to take place on the first day of term 4.

what luck.

these few days have been piled with homework, and i haven't really had a day to rest.

olympics have been quite astonishing so far - the opening ceremony was awesome, phelps' prominence, and the climax of the swimming events that had me off the seat. not to forget the galore of record breaking sprees.
i'm just basically referring to swimming, cause it has really been the main focus, from the start.
i can't wait for the track and field meet to start.
the 100m race.

i'm feeling drowsy,
probably because of the pathetic medicine i am having these few days.
sleep,
is the medicine for tonight.

this time the moral is
girls make boys cry.
please don't.

2008-08-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

wake me up when september ends;

My throat has officially, died on me again. It is painful, sore, hurt, dry, and my nose is running like a tap at one instance and clogged up at another. Then, I can't speak properly and I end up speaking like a slang with a weird voice.

Lost my throat.
Lost my nose.
Lost my voice.
Wow, I'm lost.

Doctor, tomorrow. Damn it, antibiotics.
Sleeptime. Goodnight.

And please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories

2008-08-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

The motto was just a lie
It says home is where your heart is

The day after tomorrow is half day :D I love long weekends, coolios. Playing catching with stupid homework which never fail to decrease in height, but at least Econs is DONE, and tomorrow's chem, so after that, I can really sit down and concentrate. I think about 6 more weeks to EOYs? Heh, time to whack.

I NEED SLEEP, though I had 12 hours on Monday haha :P
My throat's sore, pain, whatever crap it's having, it hurts. Sucks. Boo.

Oh, and interesting things happen these few days. Yesterday, I saw this Indian middle-aged man, walking past me at the void deck at my block, and he SMILED AND WINKED at me 0.0 Like wth. At first, I didn't really take much notice, but then when I turned back, he waved to me and winked at me AGAIN, and I was like 0.0 seriously. Reminds me of Stupid Pinky. Haha. Then my sisters told me that there was this guy who was acting weirdly, shouting on the bus, and the comments he made were so retarded la. Haha, what has the world become? My deduction is homework. Homework makes the world go crazy. Blah.

Then today, while playing soccer, I received this call for CHANG BEER (How funny, Dilshaad -.-") For a moment I was abit confused. But I managed to recognize her voice, after five. Seconds. Haha, you'll get it from me :P HAHA

But what a shame
Cause everyone's heart
Doesn't beat the same
It's beating out of time

2008-08-04T01:14:00.002+08:00

let's write a song that we can dance to;

Hooray! I can finally cancel Econs off my to-do list.
Yes, I've completed my presentation :)
I feel so accomplished.
YAY.

These few days are still pretty busy, but life's close back to normal.
Countdown to EOYs : 6 weeks.
Get.Set.Go.

I had a weird dream yesterday.
Hohumm? Haha?

You.Together.

2008-07-27T18:13:00.003+08:00

Just as long as you stand, stand by me,

For the past week, I had alot of catching up to do for school - especially maths. Maths was confusing, and there were alot of homework luh. But I guess I feel accomplished, because I managed to finish all my maths yesterday :) There's a 70 minute (0.0) econs presentation next tuesday, and 40 minute chemistry lesson to prepare. Ever since I came back from Melbourne, I have been sleeping at 2. But it seems that I have to continue to burn the midnight oil for the next few days :(

Homework, homework, homework.
The reality of school.
Welcome back.

Oh, stand by me.

2008-07-21T21:54:00.004+08:00

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces

The past three weeks had been pretty fun; first was OBS at Pulau Ubin and then it was at Melbourne for Trinity College's Summer Schools.

OBS was well, alright, aside that I still have those marks of sandflies bites, and that I missed sailing, and we got pretty lost among the mangroves during kayaking. It wasn't bad, though. Sui Sen sounds like Swensen. Haha.

Flew to Melbourne that Friday evening after leaving Ubin in the morning. I still can remember when we first touchdown, the temperature was 5 degrees? And I wore only a shirt and jeans, plus jacket. But it was cold. And it was early in the morning. So we've got our own rooms, and I know that I couldn't find the dining hall because the door was closed and I actually walked past it thrice -.-

When the Summer School started, we didn't know well about each other, but slowly, we gained and forged ties that are well.. strong enough to keep alive. Haha, I don't know how to describe it, we talked, gossiped, chatted, played soccer, basketball (although I didn't played) and had mini (ahem) gatherings in rooms. You could see how close we were when we all started leaving - it was just so sad. Cries, tears, comforting words, knowing that we might not each other ever again was so painful and heartfelt. It was emotional, everyone didn't felt like leaving at all. It was just sad. Sad. And sad.

During the summer schools, we had many activities, like, those academic stuff, like Creative Writing, Drama, and Imagining the future. Creative Writing's the boring one, Imagining the future gave me an impression of FPS, and Drama was the most fun and interactive. Roger was funny. Haha, deaths. Then we had other activities, like theatre musical, footie match, bowling, melbourne sightseeing, and of course shopping. Ohoh, and the elective of advertising gave us the time to shop too! Haha, the footie match between St Kilda's and Carlton was fun and exciting too, I just cheered whoever scored. And I remembered we called this guy of St Kilda's no. 12 Bastian Schweinsteiger because he looks like him. It was fun, with those cheering when St Kilda won. Guys and dolls was not bad, it was quite funny at times. It was quite an experience.

We had this Ace-Hi camp during the weekends, and it was cold there, much colder, and we had a campfire, whereby the smoke just kept getting into my eyes, making me tear, and we had some high elements like the flying fox and the giant swing. Flying fox was alright, but the giant swing wasn't. It was quite scary when you pull the string and you fall from zero velocity. It felt like Tarzan hahaha. We forced Vincent to go up there and it was so funny! Haha! Then we had team bonding interactive games which were also fun. We had to squeeze up into this square, and we tried all sorts of ways to fit all of us, including Dirzaaaa (haha!), including the taupok method, and we all fell in the end. Haha, it was damn funny man. Funnyaye.

We all had to say goodbye to each other. And we were all sad. Emotional. People cried and hugged each other. Although it's just two weeks, but we had so much fun together, we couldn't bear to leave. It had became our second home to say the least. The first week, for me, came by too slow, but the second week, was way too fast for us. It just happened in a blink of an eye, and it was the end.

This trip to the Summer Schools was enlightening and enriching for me, though there were times I just felt like going back home as soon as possible. It was traumatising, having all those things happening. Sorry's just the only word that I could only say. But I will definitely miss the place, and all those friends I made. My chinese buddy, all the chinese poker mates, and the gossip buddies, and also the mentors with Vincent. Especially that Vincent's going to leave as the Summer Schools Director to become something else. It was just an ending we would never forget. It's going to be one of those memories that will be forever etched in my mind.

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time.

XX

Today it was back to school, and there were lots of homework. I missed out on alot of things. Time to catch up and buck up. Kambate! 8 more weeks.

Oh and I had a haircut :( Haircut is not an option, it's a formality.
Gahh.

Trinity Summer Schools 2008 :)

2008-07-21T00:02:00.004+08:00

We started,
We smiled,We went wild,
We laughed,
We climbed,
and fell,

Thanks for the memories in Melbourne.
Details later.
I love the feeling of Singapore.
Life goes back to normal. School's tomorrow.
I'll miss them.

goodbye.

2008-07-16T17:14:00.002+08:00

The walls are closing in,

and the sky darkens into misery,

drenched in the bitter cold.

And he hoped, wished,

to chance upon a shooting star,

for a wish to be fulfilled.

Lying down on the grass,

he closed his eyes,

tears rolling down his face.

In agony.

In hurt.

In pain.

Maybe. But who knows? No one.

Cause it dies within the screams,

fading in his heart.

And it kills him alive.

2008-07-10T21:38:00.003+08:00

Hello people! I'm blogging from Melbourne, haha! It's 1138pm though, and the sky darkens too early, and the shops follow suit too.

Had OBS before this trip. I missed the sailing part, man. Gah, hope everyone had fun sleeping in the sail. Haha! Melbourne has good food, the weather is cold, and we played soccer, and I miss the sun in Singapore, and my family and friends :( Boo.

Got back my results yesterday. Don't really know whether it's supposedly to be good or bad results but then, it's pretty okay. I'll scrape through though.

Anyway, the camp so far has been pretty interesting and fun, apart the coldness and other sorts of stupid stuff. We just had amazing race in the college, and it was stupid. Won't go into details. Haha.

Pictures :) Tata, next time :D
I'm sorry.

2008-06-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

Enrichment week Day 2.

Today's activity was well, boring. Musicals, snippets to be precise is certainly very anticlimax. Just when you want to continue watching it, it stopped -.- Gahh, yesterday's workshop wasn't exactly great either - firstly to arrive late into the lecture theatre is bad enough, then to be seen as the only one in half-grey is making things worse. And the workshop is well, boring too. Except when we watched two BBC documentaries about brainsex and compatibility. Haha, those were two interesting bits only.

I've finally started on my chinese book review. But I'm only done with the cover page. Not done with the content. Die. Haha. Then there's maths project and revision package to rush by friday and sunday. Hmm. Gahh. What a life. Oh, and there's GS too.

Tomorrow's jewellery making and Ikebana. Wow. Blah.

Over again./

2008-06-21T18:25:00.002+08:00

Hello people, again. It's the last Saturday before the holidays. Sunday, and poof, over the holidays will be, and reluctantly celebrating the arrival of the dreaded, well a little, school term.

So, I watched Germany against Portugal, which kept me so awake and refreshed during the whole game; the game ended 3-2 in Germany's favour, something I was glad about. But I must say, it was tense. I got so hyped up. In the end, I slept at 5 in the morning, not tired.

Woke up at eleven. Hmm, then I went to prepare to go out for primary school class outing :D Let's see... we had lunch at LJS, and I ended up eating the slowest among all of us -.-, then we went to Settlers' Cafe at Clarke Quay, where we had some cranky games and fun! Haha! My god, we were getting bored, then suddenly the monster doll game just crank us up! Created so much noise.. "Ugly, ugly, ugly!" HAHA. I absolutely hate the egg game. Stupid Cheng Aik, grah, I'm glad you suffered the same fate as me :X HAHAHA XD

Then I left for class gathering at Bern's house, which well, was okay. Pizza, PSP, Pictionary watching, and musical chairs? Hahaha, Bern, Verene and Felicia got pushed into the pool. Ended around 930? Then went stoning, slacking and walking around with Gabrielle at Raffles City, when all the shops started to close for the day. Haha, so we left and went back home.

Ohoh, I'm shocked at Croatia's loss to Turkey :O Wow. And I think it's time to change the plain and dark blogskin. It's getting boring and dull.

Another time then.

Hohummmmm./

2008-06-18T22:20:00.003+08:00

'Cause things will never be the same,

I haven't been really trying to complete my homework. I'm still stuck in the holidays-are-still-here mode. Haha, I can't seem to sit down to complete them. Grahh. Instead, I went bowling yesterday. And I heard we have a new coach, called Jimmy, whoever he is. I wouldn't be able to see him until after Melbourne. Hmm.

Last two days, I watched soccer, Euro2008. Both days I slept pretty late. Four plus. Haha, but I fell asleep during halftime of France against Italy. My mum woke me up. Sadsad France, Ribery got injured in the first eight minutes, then Abidal got sent off for a push in the penalty box. So I watched until halftime, bitterly trying to stay awake, probably because of the drink I had before, so I couldn't stand it, and went to lie on my sofa and slept -.- By the time I woke up, 52 minutes already. Bahh. Decided not to continue to watch after that. My mind was so much in a blur. Haha, before that I was watching this korean variety show and I was laughing like mad. It was so retarded and funny! :) That was my best effort trying not to sleep. Haha.

Today, went to the library to meet up Allyssa, Pamela, Matthew and Cheng Aik to do some homework, which I did, some :D Haha, okay so we chatted too. Hahaha. Before that, I went to buy some winter clothing for the trip. Hmm, I got a jacket, a few sweaters and a Beanie (haha!). Haha, I'm pretty excited! When school starts, first four weeks - enrichment, OBS, then Melbourne, which means no lessons! Haha, but that means I will miss out on some things. Gahh, anyway, results will be out by then.

Tomorrow, there will be a water supply stoppage, they are upgrading and fix and the water pipe. Hoho, and I will try to do my chinese book review tomorrow. Then Friday, would be primary school outing then, class gathering :D

In the night there's a fire in my eyes,
And this paradise has become a place we've come to cry.
When i open your letter the words makes it better,
It takes it all away, oh, it keeps me holding on.
Oh, it keeps me holding on.

2008-06-12T22:43:00.002+08:00

Fix You - Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

I suddenly feel the urge to go back to school. I'm feeling bored at home, and I think I'll probably waste another week at home rotting in front of the computer the whole day. Bleah. It sucks man. Homework and projects. No desire to touch it. But I must. Grah. Okay okay, I think I'll shall start on my homework tomorrow. I hope. Gah.

Boring holidays. One more week.

2008-06-11T15:23:00.002+08:00

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching us fall apart

Bowling yesterday was a tragedy :( The ball visited my ankle again :/ Skin peeled. Then while chasing for the bus later, my ankle went to make contact with the wheel of my bowling bag. And the wound broke :/ So it was bloody, and I was like... stoned on the bus, staring at it blankly. I'm not surprised if my ankle gives way one of these days, if I continue banging the ball against my ankle.

I've got new shoes today :D Finally. I love the sport shoes, it's black, and a tad red :) Well, I'm happy. Haha. Oh, and the Indigo Prophecy looks interesting. Haha.

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

2008-06-10T12:49:00.004+08:00

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

Harmonica Concert yesterday at Esplanade's Recital Studio was.. alright. It all sound the same to me, the same humming. Some performances were nice though, but it was.. well, okay.

Soccer yesterday with the usual for three hours. Some Jurongville people joined us. Hmm. It was hot. Today too. Speaking about this, Netherlands 3 Italy 0 :D Netherlands FTW :D

Okay, I'm hooked to Coldplay's Viva La Vida :D Haha, it sounds majestic. My life's boring. I shall go bowling. Byebye people.

Stop breathing down my neck.

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world

2008-06-07T12:32:00.002+08:00

Hello people.

Midnight movie! Haha, my dad decided to go out and watch a movie. So we went to watched Indiana Jones, which was okay, aside the very-old-and-lame sort of jokes you could expect -.-

It has been raining outside for the past few days. Summer? Not really so.

My posts are always this short. I lead a boring life. Gahh.

Was it all that easy,
to just put aside your feelings?

It'll all get better in time.

2008-06-05T21:43:00.003+08:00

What if one day all of us perish?

I am tired. After all, waking up early at 5.50 in the morning won't help. Went out to have breakfast with mum and sister, and made my way down to Kallang at the Cage. Fun fun fun, but then, I rarely play soccer nowadays, and it wasn't surprising I played like blah just now. Haha, gawd, it was damn funny just now. We couldn't decide on Macs or KFC, but then KFC was closed when we wanted to go in and have our lunch, so we went to Macs. Didn't had my lunch though there, instead, me, soo, david, and jansen went to jansen's house and played WE10. Lol, I suck at that game. I was falling asleep. Tired. Had pizza, with ALOT of spices though. Burning lips. Gahh. Sorry Shujun, haha, didn't bowl in the end.

I'll start on my homework next week? Realized I have quite alot of them to finish actually. Damn. Dad's on leave tomorrow and everyone's moaning again. Hahaha, when he's at home, we can't do our own things :/ Blah bleh boh, okay nevermind. hahaha.

Only time will tell. Everything.

2008-06-03T22:56:00.004+08:00

I'll see you on the flipside/

Do not nothing. HAHA :D Retarded man.

Bowled two days ago. I think I aggravated my ankle. Tendency to whack the ball against my ankle. Always. And I think I hit it hard this time until my skin came off. My ankle is swollen too. Whenever I have this, my game go down all the way.

The cage on Thursday, can't wait. Playing soccer in a cage. How cool is that :D

Elmo the emo HAHA, I didn't know he does that too.

misguided gazes of fire?

2008-05-31T21:00:00.003+08:00

Last year's wishes are this year's apologies.
Every last time I come home, I take my last chance, to burn a bridge or two.
I only keep myself this sick in the head, 'cause I know how the words get you.

We're the new face of failure, prettier and younger but not any better off.
Bullet proof loneliness, at best, at best.

Aristal yesterday. It was quite good, I liked the lighting. The performances were good, felt that the Malay Dancers resembled the Black Parade. And the WDancers were, well, western. Before that had Thai Express. I got pretty lost to get to Holland V though, the bus didn't come, and I walked. After Aristal, had to go back home because I didn't bring my keys. But I don't like curfews at all. Just don't like it.

Oh, I don't know why but I tend to leave my ezlink card at the bowling alley - I've always forgotten to collect it. I still can remember I left my card at OCC for three whole days before I even realize it.

I'm getting bored at home, rotting away with nothing decent to do. I'm bored of playing computer games, my computer hangs on me, I don't feel like touching my homework. But no one wants to go out. I'm feeling the urge to learn drums again. Stoned.

One night and one more time,
thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great.

Stop and stare.

2008-05-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

HoHo, I can't sleep. It's 12.41am already.

Came back from Emily's birthday party, which was okay. Played Indian Poker etc, and helped Becky to take photos of them -.- Lol. They had a mini cake fight. And there were some alcohol. Ugh, caramel still tasted in my mouth. Disgusting. Bleh.

I love the nightskies. It's so dark and soothing. I love the night. Where everywhere just seem so quiet and clear. Just imagine, walking along the pavements quietly. Lovely, and peaceful. How I wished day was night. Where nothing would bother me. Absolute peace and quiet. But that's probably not existent in reality, though.

Oh, and Hsiang Wei and I have came out with an Idiot's Guide to become a SPRINTER. Haha, it's damn retarded. To become a sprinter in one day, all you need to do is to..

Rule 1:
When you see your bus, chase for it.

Rule 2:
When you see any bus, just chase for it too.

Rule 3:
Instead of walking, why not run?

Okay, the last two rules were what I came out with. Forget it, it's stupid. But I don't know why, I just love chasing buses.

I wish for a shooting star/

2008-05-25T22:31:00.002+08:00

Exams were over. Two days ago.
Went bowling. Two days ago.
New phone. Today.
Birthday Party. Tomorrow.

I'm happy that exams are finally over, holidays are starting and time for playing. Not sure about NAG though, but I got a new phone today :) Happy. Party tomorrow, I don't know what to buy.

I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.
I get the point.
We aren't talking.
It's just my wishful thinking.
I'm really really sorry.
For the awkward or whatsoever.
Friends?

2008-05-19T16:10:00.002+08:00

I just woke up. Just now had a heavy headache, playing soccer with the same people for two hours plus. Damn hot, I can't stand it, but I'm breezing myself under the air-con. I still want to sleep. Damn.

2008-05-18T14:05:00.004+08:00

i wish, i could save you,
and bring you back to where you were before.

as the heart burns,
we'll sing along till night turns into dawn.

go, knock myself against the wall.

2008-05-16T20:30:00.002+08:00

I'm trapped in a world that I can't take
Where everything's unrealistic and fake
I'm hiding out and planning my escape
I hope I'm not the only one
Please come and rescue me tonight

I just wish that I could disappear
Someone take me far away from here
Do you suppose there's more to life out there?

There's no happiness surrounding me
Hate and ugliness is all I see
I wanna leave it all behind
I'm running out of time
Please come and rescue me tonight

And I don't wanna be blind
I wanna open my mind
I wanna know if there's a purpose to this life
Will I ever find it? I'm running out of time...

Trapped in a world that I can't take
I'm hiding out and planning my escape
Please come and rescue me tonight

Differentiation and Chinese paper 1 were okay today, but please no careless mistakes, I hope.
Oh, and I've forgotten to mention that I submitted my physics class server test late -.- omg, I mistaken the deadline for thursday -.- blah.

2008-05-15T19:27:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Day one tomorrow. Start the countdown.

2008-05-14T21:47:00.003+08:00

Study Day. I feel accomplished that I completed Geog, Bio and Geog (IH) :) I'm so happy. Studied at Bishan library with the others, and dinner was.. let's say tad embarrassing? o.0

Woke up at 6.34am today -.- and went to school for Geog consolidation. I got caught pretty drenched in the rain and I stone under the overhead bridge for fifteen minutes? Haha, my jacket was soaked, my pants were wet, should have just listened to mum and just brought an umbrella -.-

And I'm supposed to this quiz. Germaine -.-

1)At what age do you wish to be married?

26. The class knows it haha!

2) If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 buddies you'd take and why?

Hsiang Wei, so that I can laugh at him everyday. HAHA
Bryan, so that I can insult him everyday too.
Kimberly, so that it wouldn't be such a bore there, HAHAHA :)

3) Where is the place that you want to go the most?

PARIS.

4) If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?

To have my wish come true.

5) Do you believe you can survive without money?

NO.

6) What are you afraid to lose the most?

Something I once had.

7) If you win $1 Million, what would you do?

If that happens, I would bet I would win $1 billion :)

8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

Depends on whether I feel that if it's appropriate for me to tell.

9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

She's lame, she's lame and she' still lame.

10) What is your dream GIRL/BOY?

Go figure out yourself. Hahaha.

11) What kind of person do you hate the most?

Ultra big ego.

12) If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?

Obviously.

13) Unconditional Love, what does it means to you?

Loving someone deeply wholeheartedly, supporting and standing by her even when odds are against you, without expecting any return.

14) Any wisdom to share with your readers?

1+1=2? Hahaha no.

15) If there's ever a war (or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place or fight?

Depends who's there, if it's someone/something worthy to fight for, why not?

16) If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

My self-esteem :/

17) Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?

I doubt anyone will actually understand what's going inside me.

18) What's your weakest point?

Thinking too much.

19) Think of the person who tagged you to do this quiz. What song do you relate him/her to?

Barney the dinosaur theme song? HAHA

20) What is the one thing you regret most?

That. Some of you would understand.

21)Name people who you want them to do this question.

Beanie and Hsiang Wei?

2008-05-13T20:45:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could save you,
And there's so many things that I want you to know.
I won't give up 'till it's over.
If it takes you forever, I want you to know that,

If you fall, stumble down, I'll pick you up off the ground.
If you lose faith in you, I'll give you strength to pull through.
Tell me you won't give up,
'Cause I'll be waiting if you fall.
You know I'll be there for you.

If only I could find the answer to take it all away.

I know I repeated these lyrics repeatedly over again. But these are those words I can't seem to express. Don't know why.

Whywhywhy.

2008-05-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

Someone never wake me up today. HAHAHA, ended up waking up at 10 plus. Had lunch after I finished IH finally :) Then I went to JEL with Hsiang Wei to study. Halfway through bio, I'm quite happy that I understood :)

I realized that lately for the past two weeks I have been sleeping at time varying from 12 to 2am. Fatigue catching up on me. But I shall hold on, hold on and hold on for just two more weeks. 14 days more. And it'll be all over. Come on, I can do it haha.

Happy Mother's Day :) Although I'm sorry that I didn't manage to buy something for you, I hope you have one happy day today.

and that's what you get when you let your heart win,

2008-05-09T21:50:00.002+08:00

"Don't cry because it was over,
smile because you once had it."

It's a long way down it's so high off the ground,
And I won't let you fall.

2008-05-08T21:38:00.002+08:00

I feel so relieved that I managed this term's Chemistry :) Covered four-week worth of information today with Miss Yeo, that's for stoning in class.

I'm hooked to Chris Brown's Forever :D

1, 2, 3, 4..
Heey
Hey.. forever
Hey
Heey
Forever

It's you and me
Moving at the speed of light into eternity, yeah
Tonight is the night
To join me of the middle of ecstasy
Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music go 'round you
Go 'round you

I'ma take you there.. I'ma take you there
So don't be scared when I'm right here, baby
We can go anywhere.. go anywhere
But first it's your chance to take my hand come with me

It's like I waited my whole life for this one night
It's gon be me, you, and the dance floor
'Cause we only got one night
Double your pleasure double your fun
And dance forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
(Forever)
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever on the dance floor

Feel like we're on another level, girl
Feels like our love's intertwined
We can be two rebels
Breakin' the rules me and you, you and I
All you gotta do is watch me [watch me]
Look what I can do with my feet [my feet]
Baby feel the beat inside
I'm drivin' you can take the front seat [ front seat]
Just need you to trust me [trust me]
Girl... girl... girl
It's like I..

It's like I waited my whole life for this one night [one night]
It's gon be me, you, and the dance floor
'Cause we only got one night
Double your pleasure double your fun
And dance forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
(Forever)
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever on the dance floor

It's a long way down it's so high off the ground
Sending for an angel to bring me your heart
Girl where did you come from?
Got me so undone
Gazing your eyes got me saying
What a beautiful lady no ifs ands or maybes
I'm releasing my heart and spirit amazing
There's no one else that matters you love me
And I won't let you fall girl, let you fall girl ohhh
Ohh..ohh.. ooh yeah
I won't let you fall let you fall let you fall
Ohh ohh yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
It's like..

It's like I waited my whole life for this one night
[one night]
It's gon be me, you, and the dance floor
'Cause we only got one night
Double your pleasure double your fun
And dance forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
(Forever)
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever ever-ever
Forever on the dance floor

Ohh.. oh.. oohhohohohh
Ohhh.. yeah
Forever ever ever ever
Forever ever ohhh
(Fade)

2008-05-07T22:08:00.002+08:00

I'm staring out into the night,
trying to hide the pain.

Sports meet today. My class got second for 4x400m :) Haha, but today I did something stupid. I banged my head against the fan on the ceiling, because I was going to fall off, then I jumped and ouch luh. Everybody stared at me 0.0 like wth? Hahaha, then they all started laughing. Idiots. Pain leh.

Ass week in a week. I haven't started studying yet. Having chem consolidation tomorrow with miss yeo, I think? Hmm, maths quiz this fri. And we haven't present our IH yet.

My sister is not going to school until next Tues. Unfair. And she finished all her papers already. Grah.

Blahblehboh.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong.

2008-05-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

I shall not think anymore. I shall not. If it is, it is.
And maybe a lesser dose of sad songs would do me good.

Believing it once more.

2008-05-05T20:51:00.003+08:00

I guessed I've changed.
and maybe I'm a living example of a _____.

When I dream, I see dawn turn into dusk, into dusk..

2008-05-04T14:08:00.002+08:00

Confused.
Me.
Now.
Maybe not.
Desire.
Not now.
Time.
Wait.
One-way.
Smile.
Pain.
Heart.
Mixed.
You.
Sleep.
Cry.
Past.
Present.
Conversations.
Depression.
Why.
Rain.
Drown.
Misery.
Alone.
March.
Nine.
Friends.
Window.
Snow.
Maple.
Beans.
Stupid me.
One.
Two.
Three.
Sorrows.
Fate.
Crap.
Hopeless.
Loser.
Someone.
Forever.
Never.
Solitude.
Brainwash.
Kill.
Die.
Walls.
Close in.
Give up.
XYZ.

Drown the sorrows in the pouring rain.
To end the pain,
to take it all away.
Pull the trigger,
and give me a shot to remember.

2008-05-03T22:22:00.004+08:00

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
If there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus x2]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

2008-05-02T23:21:00.003+08:00

I bought new earphones :) Red ones haha :D

Oh, and today, we were pretty bored, so me and Bryan went to spam michelle koh and jiawen's phone. HAHA, it was so funny :D Okay, we were bad. Hahaha.

Tomorrow's college day. Food fair at 4. Grahhh. Nevermind, off-in-lieu on Monday. Haha.

Watched Da Vinci just now. Quite okay. Just that self-flaggelation (something like that) is sick and disgusting. Movie spree continues. Soon.

Fate seems to recreate,
I just cannot escape,
Something holds me down and makes me
act a way I can't explain.

2008-05-01T22:05:00.002+08:00

Sweeney Todd is... sick and brutal. But well, I like this character. Such a sad and pitiful character. The movie's quite nice, and I want the soundtracks! :) I also watched Goal! too, since today's Labour Day. REST :)))

Exams in two weeks' time :( Ohwell, time to study. Tomorrow ending early because of preparations for college day on Saturday.

I'm still undecided about going to Trinity :/ Deadline's next monday. Gahh.

Coach will not be coaching us anymore :/ Suck man.

I cut my hair yesterday, and the weather's still so hot. Hot and humid. Grahh, luckily I'm staying under the air-con for the whole of today :)

It's just the small things that make up the numbers.
My life is such a bore.

2008-04-29T23:40:00.002+08:00

Whywhywhy.
Sigh.

I need to wake up from this state of mind,
the situation is a staying kind.
I gotta get your memory out of my head.

2008-04-28T21:33:00.002+08:00

It is damn HOT now >:(
Grah.

28 April

2008-04-28T00:23:00.005+08:00

Hello people, it's early Monday, 0023 hours. And I'm not yet asleep ): Slept pretty late last few days. Sigh.

I tried doing maths, but I can't concentrate and do differentiation at all. Ohwell, but I completed Practice Set 4, fieldwork, chinese, LA etc :) haha, well abit of accomplishment.

I was chatting with friends online and on the phone just now. And how people has changed. For the better or the worse, that I don't know.

We have all grown up one year older,
maturity has been slowly catching us up,
and time have known us to change,
knowing one another again.

We all lead similar lives,
day by day, rain or shine.
There're bad days,
when luck doesn't favour us,
but we have to live with it,
cause without them there wouldn't be any turnarounds.
But in the end, changing,
to become more competent,
becoming us.

Sometimes when things doesn't go in my way, and when I'm feeling on the verge of breaking down, I just feel like giving up on everything I have.

But there's always a turnaround,
and I won't give up,
cause that's what I'm living for.

no em sehsup ohw eno eht era ouy

26 April

2008-04-26T23:48:00.003+08:00

I miss my bed.

LA filming was tiring. And it was pretty retarded.

Bryan was trying to whack me with the stick.

My foot for his face.

YAY Divorce! :D

So, I left at 8, didn't had my dinner, and estelle's place nearby sold no food but tyres -.- Found my way to Chomp Chomp ALONE, and alighted one stop earlier. Ended up walking there. Haha, it's the second time I've been there. Haha, so I was trying to figure my way there, and I almost got lost. Bus 317 made one big detour around the houses, before turning back to the same bus stop I took -.-

HOMEWORK PROJECTS. URGENTLY WAITING FOR MY ARRIVAL.
But, I don't miss them though, at all.

但是，
人生总有许多巧合，两条平行线也可能会有交会的一天。
但是，
人生总有许多意外，握在手里的风筝也会突然断了线。

Maybe,
you are still somewhere deep in my heart.
Somewhere I can't reach.

Someday. Somehow.

2008-04-25T23:11:00.002+08:00

Damn, my phone is freaking me out luh. Ugh. Wtf.

I was talking on the phone, then I heard this sound, and it became repeating itself over and over again, but apparently I heard it only and Kim said that it was the sound from the Japanese horror movie "One Missed Call" 0.0 WTF, scary luh. It scared both of us, and the best part was that i suddenly heard a guy's voice over saying "haha".

WHAT THE BLOODY F****** HELL LAH.

No conference. Nothing. It just scared the hell out of us. Freakishhh. And it still continued on and on just now. BLAH. GRAH. GREAT.

And it's 2319 hours now. How wonderful can it get.

25 April

2008-04-25T18:37:00.002+08:00

Tgif. But it doesn't really make much of a difference. Tomorrow meet up for LA filming. Gahh.

School was okay. Finally I can do anything I wanted for PE, so we ended up playing basketball -.- It was retarded. We did the NE Quiz today, the building of Singapore. Haha, okay I passed it, but we were trying to break the high score. Apparently Molina did -.- HAHA okay joking haha. MI lecture was funny man, Mrs Tan was in a good mood I guess? The IP1s went to the wrong LT, and so we were lost too -.- But Mrs Tan was hilarious today, haha about Mr Eng and his mic. HAHAHA

Math test was okay, but I was stuck at the first question. Partial fractions. Suck man, haha I skipped the whole tutorial when I was away for competition. Damn.

Lately, I have a fetish for red. I want red earphones, red skin for my mp3 player, red shoes etc. Um, maybe not red spectacles, ohwait, I am wearing one now -.-

Red is cool :)

2008-04-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

And all the things that you never ever told me,
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me,
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me,
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me;

The hardest part.

24 April

2008-04-24T19:27:00.002+08:00

This has been a hectic week. And it's not gonna end soon.

Fri : 4.30pm
Sat : LA project

In pending : IS presentation (saturday or sunday?), Geography Fieldwork, IH project.

Not to forget, I have to complete my LA journals and my chinese paper today, and there's a graded maths test tomorrow :( What a week. Wth.

Bowling today with Bryan wasn't THAT bad, okay but still there's much to improve with my release. Consistency man. Haha, but Bryan owes me a drink. He lost HAHA :) I Love free drinks.

Oh, I've got my chinese book for the book review. Haha, it's a picture book man.

And I think I'm having a haircut soon, next week. Before college day.

Okay, off with my chinese and LA :(

The End

Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup, what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not

If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
You can find out firsthand what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye
I'd encourage your smiles I'll expect you won't cry

Another contusion, my funeral jag
Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag
You've got front row seats to the penitence ball
When I grow up I want to be nothing at all!

I said yeah, yeah!
I said yeah, yeah!

C'mon C'mon C'mon I said
(Save me!) Get me the hell out of here
(Save me!) Too young to die and my dear
(You can't!) If you can hear me just walk away and
(Take me!)

23 April

2008-04-23T21:32:00.002+08:00

Fine day? Haha I don't know. I guess last few days I was abit down but yeah, I'll try NOT to sound so sad. emo-weemo. -.-

Nevermind, there were some good news though. Haha, I passed my NAPFA :) Finally, silver. 3 pull-ups. Haha. Then MI and Bio tests - postponed :) This brightens my day. YAY. Then, we had the Trinity College talk today. Haha, I feel like going for it :) Especially it's wintertime during June at Melbourne. Haha. Cool.Cool.Cool.

So many questions
Still left unanswered.
So much,
I've never broken through.

And when I feel you near me,
Sometimes I see so clearly.
The only truth I've ever known
Is me and you.

Look at this man,
So blessed with inspiration.
Look at this soul,
Still searching for salvation.

I don't know much,
But I know I love you.
And that may be
All I need to know.

21 April

2008-04-21T20:11:00.002+08:00

Whenever I step outside, somebody claims to see the light.
It seems to me that all of us have lost our patience.
'Cause everyone thinks they're right, and nobody thinks that there just might
be more than one road to our final destination.

But I'm not ever going to know if I'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction.
And I'm not sure which way to go because all along
we've been going in the same direction.

Bad Day. Serious bad day. I don't know how to explain but it was one of those days I don't ever feel like waking up. Forever.

I wonder, whether I have really lost it all. I've lost my direction, and these days seemed distant from those days when everything was so oh-feel-good alright. Lately, it has always been a battle against my soul, my heart. Everyday seemed to be a long day.

I'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blame
for all the holes in answers that are clearly showing,
for something to fill the space. Was all of the time I spent a waste,
'Cause so many choices point the same way I was going?

But I'm not ever going to know if I'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction.
And I'm not sure which way to go because all along
we've been going in the same direction.

It's like I've been carrying a burden. To myself. And it's hard to take. Getting more and more breathless with every step I take. Sometimes I just feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down.

I'm tired.

So why does there only have to be one correct philosophy?
I don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of them.
And why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?
I'd like to think that I can go my own way and meet you in the end.
Go my own way and meet you in the end.

I need a break. But can I afford to?

I'm not ever going to know... if I'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction.
And I'm not sure which way to go because all along
we've been going in the same direction.

This year's not been well at all. I can just only hope and wish for a breakthrough. For a turnaround.

Sick and tired of this world,
there's no more air.
Trippin' over myself,
goin' nowhere.
Waiting,
suffocating,
no direction,
And I took a dive.
And on the way down;

So, I wish,
for someone to come by,
and save me,
from this neverending fall
towards nowhere.

20 April

2008-04-20T15:13:00.002+08:00

Do I?

Or not.

When you look me in the eyes,

19 April

2008-04-19T19:40:00.003+08:00

IP preview.

I woke up late, and had a late breakfast. McGriddles taste soggy. Not nice. The bread is soggy :/ Then I went to school for the IS board game.

It was okay, but then, again, the game got boring as time passes, so I got restless. But haha, there was something slightly worth remembering about :) okay, forget it. Hahaha.

Saturdays. Sigh.
At least it didn't rain today.

For once, I wished that fate was my friend.

2008-04-18T21:47:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms,
Wondering what I've got to do.

Love is one big illusion,
and there are hearts all over the world tonight;

2008-04-17T20:10:00.002+08:00

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up,
'cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

And I'm tired of being all alone.

Would you catch me if I had to fall?

16 April

2008-04-16T22:25:00.002+08:00

Sore throat + runny nose + blocked nose = sick. Oh I bet, I'm gonna lose my voice soon. Actually it is already starting to. People around me are all sick, man. Haha.

Training today was weird. We had a mini stepladder competititon within the B'Div people, but I lost. Haha, ohwell, we are stopping training for two weeks because of A'Div and somemore, we're not going to support them :( Suck man. Haha.

I don't know.

13 April

2008-04-13T18:20:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Sis :)

I'm feeling sucky. Grah.

12 April

2008-04-12T22:07:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could save you.

But maybe I'm not in a position to.

I wish I could save you.

11 April

2008-04-11T21:45:00.004+08:00

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer,

So bring on the rain,
and bring on the thunder.

11 April

2008-04-11T09:39:00.002+08:00

If you fall, stumble down,
I'll pick you up off the ground.
If you lose faith in you,
I'll give you strength to pull through.
Tell me you won't give up,
'cause I'll be waiting,
if you fall you know,
I'll be there for you.

If only I could find the answer to take it all away.

10 April

2008-04-10T18:58:00.002+08:00

If you wanna fight,
I'll stand right beside you.
The day that you fall,
I'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces.
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,

Cause the heart never lies.

9 April

2008-04-09T21:08:00.002+08:00

Just came back from training. Wasn't in a good mood today :/ Grahhh, I didn't want to bowl at all, with all those fire inside my stomach. GRAHHHH :((( Suckssss man, it's rarely I get angry. Rarely at people :/

Nevermind I shall cool down. Hahaha, beanie just finished her drink :( Bah, I need drinks to simmer down. Blah :/

Haha I was meddling with my GC and typed things on it. Haha next time I should just take photos and let you all see :)

8 April

2008-04-08T20:36:00.002+08:00

"When You Look Me In The Eyes"
Jonas Brothers

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

8 April

2008-04-08T16:24:00.002+08:00

Half-day today :D COOL MAN.

Mrs Fong gave us a reprieve today during Bio. We were let off one period earlier because we are way ahead of other classes. So we played PSP after that. Haha, and I seriously love history. Seriously. Haha.

Training yesterday was retarded because coach called us to bowled the worst score, but if the ball goes into the gutter, +10 to the score. Hahaha, guess what. I got 160+. 6 gutters, one strike, spares. Hahaha, I couldn't stand it. And it was damn retarded. We were celebrating because we hit one pin. Haha, then we had the highest score, with spares +10, strikes -10. Hahaha and I was leading man :)

Okay, and we got the IP preview shirt, which looks pretty nice. Haha, training tomorrow. Coolios.

webbie buddy is being retarded man :D HAHA scary eyes :0 HAHA

6 April

2008-04-06T10:06:00.003+08:00

Gosh, look what I have in store.

Word Count : 3374
And guess what, I have to summarize this :( Gahh. I hate this.

Haha, anyway, beside this there's not much other things to do :) Which means I have free time today.

Oh, guess what woke me up today.

"I count down the days until we say goodbye
I wish there was a way that i could just stop time forever,"

That's for singing during the whole conversation, Kim - over and over again. Hahaha, omg, it's now stuck in my head. Hahaha lol. Bah. I'm listening to other songs to overwrite it. Overwrite, hahaha :P

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can wait
I can wait forever

2 April

2008-04-02T21:24:00.002+08:00

Speech day today. No lessons yay haha :)

So we went around to listen council candidates and their speeches. Some were pretty retarded and our responses were just like -.-" wth. Played PSP during this period with the others, and then me and yuyue went for chem practical trial run for tmr's actual test. Bleach smells disgusting :/ And the bulb couldn't light up, but the LED did. CAAL was free time for us. So me and Akshay went to had a break at the canteen.

Training today was not really good. Maybe fatigue. Maybe. I don't know. Speed dropped. Unable to control the ball today. Gahh.

Unable to catch with work especially chemistry. Sucks. But got back History essay back today. *grins* That's why I love history :)

Maple leaves. Autumn.

28 March

2008-03-28T21:59:00.003+08:00

Fridays. Long days in school. No good.

Haha I think that I spent most of my time sleeping in class. Was still suffering from yesterday. Yang Laoshi was being kind enough to wake me up. Headache all the way from LA till the lectures. Physics was kind of disappointing. Haha, and we watched this small little video and Mrs Tan was like "cover your ears if you don't want to hear". Haha, the video was so funny, apparently I think that this speaker was discussing about social issues and then he was saying this saying that, but the best was ridiculously funny. "**** off, b****" and then his expression was like 0_0. and then -_-. then 0_0. OMG. It was like WTF la, hahaha. Dozed off in Maths and had some censorship talk with Dr Robert Yeo which wasn't really after all enlightening especially that whatever people said goes into my ear doesn't even sync with the brain and just POPS out like that. And I heard that I missed a talk that I should have went because it would have been helpful and interesting for me. HAHA. As what Hsiang Wei has said, from level -infinity to level 0 is a big big improvement. Dorkey, or donkey I say? Hahaha. Cookies and cream are nice I must say. I still can taste it :)

Weekends. Woohoo. Let's celebrate.

27 March

2008-03-27T23:10:00.004+08:00

Nationals are over.

Today was a hectic day. After competition went with Bryan to SAFRA Mount Faber to patch up his ball and bowled abit. Then went back to OCC and watch the seeded teams play and continued with the prize presentation. Then we bowled again. Traintraintrain for next year :) I want to improve. I was damn tired. And we missed the bus and had to wait for half an hour before the next shuttle bus came. By then, I was like going to disintegrate? It felt like when I did not had food, nor water, nor any rest at all. Distressing. So we lay on the benches like stones and stoned. Haha, dinner was retarded. Back home was retarded too. Hahaha, but I'm still so tired. Rest.

Where's my bed?

When you're sitting there
It's hard for me to look away

22 Mar

2008-03-22T21:27:00.003+08:00

Hsiang Wei ah hsiang wei, idiot. Quiz -.-"

instructions: *remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What do i need most now?

Hope and optimism. In everything.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?

Nah.

3. Who would you like to meet on the streets?

Someone :X (to your interpretation)

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

Paris. It looks way too cool :D

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

That after waking up, I find myself living in my dreams.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

Not necessarily. Sometimes you are not fated to.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

My loved ones. I'll probably get depressed all over.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

Invest, spend on what I want :)

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

Depending, I guess. I think too much, so I'll only act when I feel that the time is right for me and when my instinct tells me to.

10. what is your favorite quotes?

Basket. Go and die. (fill in the blanks) your head. Haha

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

I can get along with, pleasant in my own perspectives I guess.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?

Ultra big ego. Sometimes it gets to my nerves.

13. What is your ambition?

Only my class knows. Shhh. Hahaha. It's a secret :P

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

I rather they say it directly at my face than speaking behind my back. It just creates more trouble.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

My friends. I'll get too lonely.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?

Nope, though I wish to have a spectacles and shoes collection. Hahaha.

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.

Weird, haha. Kidding.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?

Confidence in myself. I don't think highly of myself, which makes me think too much, which kind of sucks.

19. Is there anything that you have done that make regret?

Yes. I really regretted it. I've always thought about it now and then.

20. What are the characteristics/traits you look for in choosing your inner circle of friends?

Understanding, and fun to be with.

the 8 people i am going to tag:

Don't know haha, let's see.

19 March

2008-03-19T20:16:00.002+08:00

By now, I got back most of my results. Both maths were okay, I got posted to Epsilon (or something like that). But I failed my chemistry. Kind of expected it. Grrr :/

Doubles tomorrow. Hope all the best. No more jitters. No more.

17 March

2008-03-17T19:52:00.002+08:00

Today is a bad bad day to start with. Singles was such a failure. Perhaps it was tense. Perhaps I didn't have the nerves. Perhaps I shouldn't kid myself either. I bowled badly. Maybe I just suck.

I got this feeling in my 5th game when I wanted to give up and everything, when I couldn't get my shots. Even when it got into the pocket, it left me with a pin. I just kind of got frustrated and everything. It worsen during my last game when it continued. Inside my heart, I think I was looking lost emotionally, lost control of my feelings. I think I almost lost myself. I can't concentrate, and I felt like breaking down. It was bad. Very bad. Perhaps it's just not my day. Perhaps it's just not meant to be. It sucks to the core. I just feel like going to sleep and run away from all these feelings. It's distressing.

I need someone to talk to. I need someone who can understand me now.

16 March

2008-03-16T13:44:00.002+08:00

Last day of holidays unfortunately.

I'm not done with my homework. How wonderful.

Tomorrow's singles. Ohwell. I'm prepared for the worst anyway. Not really in the best of shapes. Suck man, but let's hope all goes well tomorrow. Well, I have to be positive anyway. Try to be. Okayokay, I shall just focus and concentrate and not let any shots affect me badly? I'm a determined person haha. Okay that's crap. But I'm struggling I guess. Suffering from sleeping nights lately. Insomnia. I can't sleep at all. I just lay on my bed hopelessly for three hours but I just can't get my mind off. Damnit, so I'm tired. Okay, but after everything, I think I should just relax. Ice Lemon Tea and my mp3 tomorrow. Haha. I'm not even thinking or getting worried over getting my results back.

Guess who I saw yesterday? Haha.

12 March

2008-03-12T20:18:00.003+08:00

It's Wednesday. And it's four days to B'Div.

I have no idea at all whether I'm ready for it. It just totally sucks to the bottom. Honestly, I'm frustrated about myself and it's difficult to pull myself from that. I seriously want to do well, at least to my own standards. But I am mentally unprepared. The pressure puts me down badly and I can't focus and concentrate. I'm not sure whether I can do this anymore. I don't have any thing good to think about. I just don't understand why it's happening. And my condition is bad enough to start with. I have two blisters at my thumb. And it's affecting me. I want to do well ):

Take a breath
I pull myself together
But can I?

7 March

2008-03-07T23:00:00.002+08:00

Finally Ass Week's over :)

Physics was relatively easy. Haha, but I probably screwed big time for Chemistry and HMT. But heck, who cares man. It's all over. Time to play. Time to train.

Bowling with Bryan was stupid today. My thumb has officially died on me. There's a blister and my fingernail chipped. Time to trim them. Then, after my thumb died, we went fun bowling, haha, and it was ridiculously stupid and funny. And all my muscle memory has gone :/ Sucks, I had 5 EMPTY frames for the first game. That is bad. Especially there's only one more week to B'Div. Train!

Let your voice shred miles of diamond skies
Just to walk as they wake in the darkness
Well darling tonight could be a beautiful night to die
A beautiful night to die

29 Feb

2008-02-29T21:57:00.002+08:00

I've decided to blog after since it would only be four more years before I get to blog on this date. So, this also says that Akshay's birthday, which incidentally falls on this fateful date, is currently celebrating his fourth birthday this year (16/4 = 4). Which makes him the youngest in our class, or perhaps the whole IP batch. HAHA. Okay, Happy Birthday Jane (:

Today was the second of two study days given, and went back to school for consolidation for chemistry and IH. So, two more days till the start. One more week till the day when I can finally concentrate on bowling. Three weeks till the start of B Div. Cool schedule. And maybe I overexpected, maybe I should just settle my target in B Div to bowl to the best of my ability. Haha, that would be much more realistic. During this week of hiatus from training, I can only train up using weights. And I will have to practice my spares.

These few days I've been getting pretty irritated easily. So pardon for any abrupt flares. It's all due to the stress from the environment, from everybody who study alot. It will get better after the whole assessment week, I assure.

The day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

22 Feb

2008-02-22T22:38:00.002+08:00

This week has been busy.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday training. Pretty sucky. Actually it sucks like bottom down all the way. But heh, today training with coach wasn't that bad. I altered abit of my release style and based on today, I have just a bit of confidence :)

So, here goes my target for B Div. Let's hope I can reach the target.

Put it simply, if possible, aim for the Masters :)
Well, I think I might be overly-ambitious, but then, it's a target. And who cares?
Nothing is impossible :D

Monday injured my left knee and it hurts for a few days, but today was better. Today, my middle finger got hit by the weights and it's swollen and painful. Heal.Heal quickly.

Road run was slack. ~~Full-stop.~~
Homework is piling up. ~~Full-stop.~~
Ass Week is in a week's time. ~~Full-stop.~~
I haven't really started studying. Full-stop.

Full-stop.

17 Feb

2008-02-17T17:22:00.003+08:00

I can just close my eyes anytime now.

I'm still suffering from the late night yesterday after Chingay at Lau Pa Sat. Tired man :/ Reached home at like 3am today. But well, Chingay was fun to an extent even though we did ushering jobs though we are crowd control. Fireworks flew so way high up, it looks fantastic, just that it was pretty silent. During the preview, we were deployed near to the WCs, and we totally had nothing much to do at all. So we ended up chatting and talking. Haha, but yesterday we helped ushered spectators inside to the city hall stand. But the worst was the departure, when people just literally flowed out from the parade, and it was hectic. Although we did retarded things, like bowing to people and said goodbye to everyone for about half an hour. And some people were poking fun at my lollipop. Hahaha.

Then when everything was finished, we walked to Lau Pa Sat but we got lost along the way, but took photos though. And I got taupok-ed thrice, just say that I'm being a total idiot for believing Sebastian haha. During supper, Sebastian was telling us some of the jokes and we were laughing so badly. Haha, it was sososo stupid. Joker. Hahaha.

Urgh I'm still so tired, and I think I have a slight stiff neck. Bah. Physics :/

Eye to eye.
To and fro.

14 Feb

2008-02-14T20:59:00.002+08:00

Shit man.

I fell asleep while studying for IH. Haha, I don't care anymore. I'm tired after a tiring week. Three days of consecutive trainings and reaching home late deprived me of badly-needed sleep. And we all mistaken B Div to be during Ass Week, which is not, but after March Holidays. Good, at least I concentrate on studies first then train during the holidays.

Today was Valentine's, and in school people were celebrating it haha. Presents for the class, and roughly typically like that. Food and food and food. Blah.

Tomorrow's Chingay. So the next two days will be hectic as ever. Bah.

Lacking courage
yet I hope and wait
for an answer
to end it all.

6 Feb

2008-02-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

Today's CNY eve. Hahaha, I had steamboat for reunion dinner. Damn, but my throat has gone sore after the chilli. Shit.

Anyway, today's CNY celebration was pretty much slack. After all, I was involved in the paper-cutting competition which I didn't really help much either. And I missed the concert too. :/ Well, but who cares.

Then went back to Fuhua! Haha, had a mini 6A gathering with the others, where we had lunch, neoprints which we tried to squeeze the 12 of us into the place. Hahaha, and we made a big mess out of it. We were literally, squeezing ourselves for space to move. Haha, it was funny. And went to the HDB deck (again) and played random games, with Cheng Aik's own "black magic" trick. It was so lameeee -.- Haha, and we did stupid forfeits like kissing the wall and the basketball -.-

Memories.Happy.Carefree.

Reunion dinner at home and we had steamboat! :D Shabu-shabu :) The chilli was nice, but look what happen to my throat now. Bleh.

Who cares though. It's Chinese New Year! :D

Wishing everyone a Happy Chinese New Year in advance XD

2 Feb

2008-02-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

This could be the beginning,
to breathe for one last time.

The End.

31 Jan

2008-01-31T23:04:00.000+08:00

I was thinking to get a pink spare polyester ball, haha. I think I will have to change my spare ball soon. I also want that pair of Dexter bowling shoes.

A revolution has begun today for me inside
The ultimate defense is to pretend
Revolve around yourself just like an ordinary man
The only other option is to forget

29 Jan

2008-01-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face

A Beautiful Lie.

26 Jan

2008-01-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

They tell me that a man can lose his mind / living in the pain.
Recallin' times gone by, I'm crying in the rain.

a song without the words,
a man without a soul,
a bird without its wings,
a heart without a home.
a knight without a sword,
a sky without the sun.
a breath without the air.

22 Jan

2008-01-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

Here's my gratitude to everyone :D

Thankyou to my class for celebrating my birthday, in the classroom, in the canteen, and trying to embarrass me. Hahaha.

Thankyou to my junior class who too, tried to embarrass me in the canteen by singing louder than the first time those who sang. And it was pretty embarrassing hahaha. Oh, special thanks to Nurul for the chocolates. Hahaha! No worries, man. Oh, and thankyou to the class for not smashing my face into the bowl of noodles I had in front of me. I don't want to suffer the same fate as Taro. Hahaha.

Thankyou to Hsiangwei and ABK, especially HongHsiangWei, who borrowed money for his shoes, and left me with practically nothing for dinner. (Grr. My stomach's grumbling.) Nevermind la. Oh they instigated the first happy birthday song at the canteen. Idiots. Hahaha.

Thankyou to the rest, who haha, incidentally knew about it and joined in. Haha. Thankyou for those birthday messages after midnight, the past, and the present. Hahaha.

Oh and special mention to ZiHao who mistakenly thought my birthday was tomorrow. HAHAHA, nevermind I'll celebrate yours one day after then :P

Thankyou to all of you who made today a memorable one to the year ahead :D

THANKYOU~! XD

Legally 16.

20 Jan

2008-01-20T12:01:00.000+08:00

There's a strange feeling within me.

I feel weird. I feel light. But this marks the pain and fear inside me. Sometimes I just want to stand on the edge of the cliff, screaming out loud till I break. The heart and the mind speak of different languages. Different wavelengths.

I feel bad. Not brave enough. Lack of courage to let you go. I don't want to make people feel that I'm being persistent.

It was like a walk down the memory lane. Where everything seems to flow back. I don't know what has become of it.

I wish I can stop. But I hope for something else.

I'm sorry.

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

16 Jan

2008-01-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

*coughs*

Having a very very bad cough that seems to last for ages. Occasional blocked nose, makes it more difficult to live by :( My throat hurts like hell :/ I hate coughs. I hate blocked nose. NoNoNo. No spicy food. No fried stuff. No cold drinks. More water. WATERRRR :/ Ohmygod, what have I gotten myself into? :/ I'll lose my voice sooner or later :(

Training today. It was pretty okay. It wasn't really that good either :( And today had boring lessons. Sciences :/ But Maths was weird. Bryan got wrongly accused by Mr Eng, and Mr Eng was like "Now all my fault." It happened a few more times later in the lesson haha. Good thing is that tomorrow school starts lateeee :)

Oh, and my phone is kinda screwed because I can't seem to talk on the phone. The mic is kind of spoilt I guess :(

*/

Would you rather go to Paris in the following ways, choose one.

1) Walk there from here.
2) Save enough money for the air ticket and go there. With no money there.
3) Save more than enough money for the ticket and a month of hotel stay.

But obviously option 3 takes the longest time to save up.

I choose 3 :)

But I'll love to go to Paris now. NOWWW :/

And she means every little thing to me

11 Jan

2008-01-11T21:46:00.000+08:00

I'm tired :/

PE six rounds but my left knee hurt badly. I think it's like a recurrence since sec 1. I don't know but I'll see how it goes. No chem today because Miss Yeo is away for some seminar I think, so we played abit of basketball after PE. GS with Mr Tan and his four quadrants. Haha, we had this tailor joke during this class. Hahaha it was so funny. Geog and math and chinese lecture. I need to digest. Especially after maths. Which I have a bit of a slight problem at it. Chinese lecture was done by wenlaoshi. For the first time in two years I guess? Haha, she definitely is missed in chinese. Funny she, in a totally different way.

We had this career chart briefing by Mr Eng. Haha, he forgot to use what kind of words. Weird he. Spastic. So we are going to do on programmer. Not psychologist nor sociologist. Abdullah and his president and minister ambition hahaha.

Bowling was okay. But there is improvement in my pendulum swing. It's much more higher. And release with more power. Just that I find the lanes at CSC weird. It doesn't look to be long oil but I can't take an outside line? Maybe it's just me. But I'll need to improve. And hit the cursed 1-2 pocket. Grrr.

9 Jan

2008-01-09T20:36:00.000+08:00

Wednesdays are such a bore.

Had double chinese and LA, both were killers - bore me to sleep. Although at least chinese we were doing zuo wen which made life much awake. But I was still kind of restless still. LA was so so yawn, and we have some sci-fi essay to write. Haha, let's talk about bulletproof bodies, shall we?

Training was bad today, I have tired and painful fingers and shoulder joints. Coach wanted us to raise the ball till we could feel the weight of the ball at the peak of the pendulum swing. It was tiring, very. I couldn't really concentrate today, and bowled badly :( Mental strength.

My nose is pretty blocked, and I'm feeling pretty sick with flu and cough. Bah.

Let's hope it doesn't rain tomorrow.

And there's hearts all over the world tonight.

2008-01-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

from the heart, from the heart.

4 Jan

2008-01-04T19:57:00.000+08:00

Weekends are here. But with homework and all sorts. Damn.

Today there was the CCA Carnival so we were dismissed earlier to prepare for it. Response for bowling were okay, at least there are enough sign-ups to make up a 'B' div team. I hope it will stay the same though, I really hope.

PE was pretty tiring, considering we had a two-month hiatus, and we ran six rounds. So it was tough to gain back stamina. And we checked our height and weight. I found out that I never grew since last year. -_- Help, I'm staying put at 174, and Akshay is 181. Bah.

GS was surprising light-hearted. Mr Tan, whom I didn't really have a good impression at first, was funny. The whole lesson he was making remarks which were laughable, and we talked about our ambition. Well, ambition. Again. It's been such a joke. Had Geography after lunch and we were having lesson at the library instruction room where we questioned Mr Heah over and over again. Hahaha, it was so funny :)

I am looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth

2 Jan

2008-01-02T20:39:00.000+08:00

First day of school.

I feel sad.
I feel bad.
I feel like shit.
I feel isolated.
I feel lost.
I feel hopeless.
I feel weird.
I feel bleak-ish.
I feel darkness pouring in.
I feel the world shutting on me.
I feel being closed down.
I feel depressed.
I feel totally messed up.
I feel confused.
I feel like crying.
I feel nuts.
I feel horrible.
I feel I am such a *&%^.
I feel terrible.
I feel scared.
I feel suffocated.
I feel awful.
I feel masked.

Masked with fear.
Masked with pain.
Masked with everything that make up to sad.

I feel everything that's sad.
Because I'm feeling awfully terrible.

What a fine day to start.

Flood those troubles away.
Drown those sorrows.
Soaked in the pouring rain.
Hiding away those tears.

2007-12-31T23:09:00.000+08:00

Happy Happy New Year in advance :)

Yes, 2008 will probably signify a brand new beginning and mark the absolute end of bitter 2007. Speaking of 2007, reflections.

2007 has been quite, a weird year I say. Changed school, changed environment, ’07 was probably a transition period for me. It took me 1 year to adapt to the boy’s school environment of SJI so it wasn’t surprising I took quite some time to adapt to an environment whereby majority were girls. Weird.

Probably the most significant change in ’07 was my personality. I must say, I wasn’t what I am when I was back then. Easy-going, happy-go-lucky, laughing at exactly anything at all, it is pretty contrasting to what I am now. Dull, sad, melancholic (I hate to use the word ‘emo’:) ), it’s like what has gotten into my soul. I listened to more ‘dark’ songs, and got all isolated to myself with my dear headphones. Haha.

Throughout the last year bowling has became my priority sport instead of soccer. And since it became my CCA, gradually my passion for soccer deteriorated. I aspire, and I hope to become a good bowler. Break the 200 mark. Break it. My left hand has thus become a bit stronger haha. No, not my right. The bowling alley has become my arena. And I love the feeling of the pins falling down on to their knees in front of me. Hahaha.

’07 has also been an emotional rollercoaster for me. True to say, it was hard to live by. It is still hard to live by. Everyday, every moment, I’m still confused. Confused about what was going on, troubling over what my mind was thinking. Getting over you is a tough thing to do, and I never really managed to overcome that. I’ve told myself time after time, but time after time I couldn’t. Till this day. Or maybe so on. But it cannot be said to be your fault. It’s probably part of life. Even so, I do still hope. Without any regrets. Without any confidence. But lots at stake - friendship. Sorry, but it still lingers in my heart. I just can’t help feeling irked at myself sometimes for being unable to get over you. Like it’s contributing to the toil for everyone. Or maybe not. I don’t know. But it’s irritating me. Doing unnecessary things I think I did. Sorry.(I’m trying to be as frank as possible here but obviously, I can’t. There are still so much inside my mind.)

On a brighter note, resolutions for 2008!
+ Bowling
+ Drums
+ Grow taller!
+ Be happy :)

Wishing everyone a happy 2008 :)